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May 2014

What’s it really like to have ICP monitoring? (And…AND!! There’s a video!!)

May 30, 2014
ICP probes and all that jazz

ICP monitoring is a term you may have heard of if you have hydrocephalus.  You may have had it before; this post is really aimed at those who are due to have their first, to give them a real idea of what it’s like.  I am a firm believer in the ‘knowledge is power’ school of thought.  I have had about ten or eleven episodes of ICP monitoring so am pretty old-hat at them by now but even so, my latest experience involved some new experiences so I thought it wouldn’t hurt to write a ‘what you can expect’ guide for first-timers.  Doctors and surgeons do have a tendency to be a little blase about such procedures.  They’ll tell you about what they’ll physically do and it all sounds very straight-forward.  But of course they’ve never actually had a bolt screwed into their skulls with a probe sticking into their brains before so in terms of what it actually feels like (which is the bit we patients are concerned with), the experts are the patients, not the healthcare professionals. Looking back, I wish I’d had more first-hand information from a patient who had had it before, especially the removal part as this is done with you wide awake.  I have a lot of patients-to-be on this blog asking me if I’ve had it and what it feels like which is why I decided to make a little video and actually film my bolt being removed – the link is further down.  ICP stands for intracranial pressure, the pressure that is exerted by the CSF (cerebrospinal fluid) inside the ventricles of your brain.

Me 'n' My Bolt

Me ‘n’ My Bolt

When this pressure is within normal limits, you generally feel fine.  If it’s too high or too low, you generally feel pretty crap.  The ‘normal’ limits (as read on an ICP monitor) are between -10 and +15.  Of course this will depend on the individual; I cannot handle pressures over +10 and below -12.  If I had a pressure reading of +15, I’d probably have double vision yet I’ve been on the ward many times with fellow ‘bolted’ patients opposite me recording pressures of +25 and not really batting an eyelid!  Generally surgeons will get concerned if the pressure heads towards +20 and will intervene at this stage.  ICP monitoring is a really good diagnostic tool; it reads the pressure every minute of every day and records what’s happening when you’re awake, asleep, eating, standing, sneezing or just reading a book.  At my hospital, the National in Queen Square, they hook you up to a laptop as well which draws out an impressive little graph which shows any spikes or dips in pressure at a glance.  You may have ICP monitoring if you’re feeling generally off and adjustments to your shunt settings haven’t helped, or if your surgeons are suspecting a shunt malfunction of some sort.  I was going to include some photos of the bolt and probe itself but having looked at the pictures I think I’ll leave it as they don’t look like the friendliest of items, to be honest!!  Basically the unit consists of a long-ish probe and a bolt which is screwed into the skull; the probe slides through this bolt and is screwed into place with the nut.  Literally a nut and bolt in your head.  The procedure to insert it is generally done under sedation although sometimes it’s done under a local anaesthetic.  It takes only a few minutes apparently.  I say ‘apparently’ because I’ve never had it done under a local; it’s a personal preference.  I know many who’ve had it placed with just a local anaesthetic and who don’t mind it at all.  I can handle most things but the thought of someone drilling into my skull whilst I’m awake – nah.  The hospital you’re at will probably offer you the choice so it’s up to you!

So, my friend the ICP bolt.  Once it’s in, you’re quite literally plugged into the monitor itself, which looks like this:

An ICP monitor....during one of the rare times my pressures were reading as normal.

An ICP monitor….during one of the rare times my pressures were reading as normal.

they usually set the monitor at your bedside and once you’re hooked up, they can read the pressures all day and all night as well when you’re asleep.  You can ‘unplug’ yourself and go to the loo, go for a quick walk and so on if you feel up to it.  Once the bolt is in, it does hurt a bit; it’s quite sting-y where it’s been screwed into place and if you raise your eyebrows up it stings even more.  The solution is to not raise your eyebrows up or frown.  Basically, get botox.  You can’t feel the probe inside your head but you will feel it move if you forget you’re plugged in and get up to go for a walk without unplugging yourself first.  Nothing bad happens; you just get yanked back to the bed but it does feel a bit odd for a minute!
It takes a day or so to get used to having wire hanging out of your head.  At nighttime in particular, it’s best to clip the wire out of the way onto your pillow, otherwise as you toss and turn during sleep, you may find yourself inadvertently tugging on it and will get woken up repeatedly with a sore head.  I find it best to use those tiny little hair clips

Clipped and ready for snoozeville!

Clipped and ready for snoozeville!

(get them from Claire’s Accessories or similar) and clip the wire to the top of my pillow, making sure I’ve left enough room for me to roll in the opposite direction without pulling.  Once that’s done, you can get a good nights sleep in.  Just don’t forget to unclip yourself in the morning!
Depending on how long your surgeon is planning to leave the bolt in will probably depend on whether you attempt to wash your hair or not; if it’s only a few days, you can easily leave it.  But for ‘monitor marathons’ like the four weeks I had it in for, you’ll probably want to at least try to wash your hair at some point!  This is possible but you just have to be very, very careful; getting the bolt wet is not an option.  It takes a bit of practice, but it’s do-able;  I have found over the years that the easiest method is to gather the wire in your mouth to keep it well out of the way, make sure you can see yourself in a bathroom mirror (so you can see as well as feel where you’re directing the shower spray) and if you can’t see your reflection, get a friend/family member/nurse to carefully place some towelling around (not on!) the bolt to keep it dry.  Then, when you wash your hair, you simply wash up to the towel.  As long as you keep the bolt and surrounding area dry, it’s okay.

Keep the wire out of the way and avoid the bolt...then just wash 'n' go!

Keep the wire out of the way and avoid the bolt…then just wash ‘n’ go!

  Some hospitals are stricter than others about this but to be honest I’ve never known any hospital keep ICP bolts in heads for as long as they do at the National, so the staff there are pretty understanding about it! Besides, I think it actually helps to keep the surrounding hair clean and not let it get very dirty over weeks, to help reduce infection.  I have no idea if that’s actually true but it makes sense to me!

Adieu, Lil’ Bolt, Adieu

Having the bolt removed is often the part that most people are apprehensive about as that’s the bit you will be awake for.  It only takes about five minutes to do so you can understand why they don’t bother going through the whole ceremony of an anaesthetic and besides, apart from the stitching-up bit, (which does hurt), it’s really not too much of a bother.  I won’t lie; it feels weird.  After spending all your time when it was in trying not to knock it or bang it or get the wire caught, it does feel very wrong to have someone suddenly grappling and tugging at it.  I filmed the removal of my last bolt in October; the link is right here – don’t worry, it’s not gory – but in case you don’t want to watch it, I’ll describe what happens as best I can.  First they get you to lie flat.  This wasn’t always the case at the National so it may vary from place to place but nowadays, you lie flat.  A nurse or medic will start off by unwinding the plaster or dressing which surrounds the bolt itself, usually soaked in iodine to keep everything clean.  Then they’ll unscrew the nut on the bolt to loosen the probe itself.  This can feel a bit strange, but noting too odd yet.  When they actually pull the probe out, sometimes they’ll ask you to breathe out sharply after three, and remove it on ‘three’…this time they didn’t ask me to do that and all I felt was a slight sting and a strange but very fleeting feeling in my head…then it was out, in a second.  After that (and you’ll see this in the video) it can feel like it’s all over – I keep asking ‘is that it?’, rather hopefully!  But no, they then have to get the screw out of your skull.  This is the bit that does feel odd; the screw is obviously screwed in tightly on insertion so it can be a bit of a job for them to undo it.  My advice is just breathe slowly!  When they take it out it stings again but nothing terrible.  After that they’ll clean the area with iodine; it’ll feel sore but it’s quite a relief to know it’s all out and done with!  The final thing for them to do is stitch you up; you may not actually need this but I lost some CSF when they took the bolt out so I needed quite a deep and tight stitch.  Now, the truth is this bit does hurt.  A lot, if I’m completely honest.  I’ve not met anyone who’s had this bit done and who hasn’t thought it to be pretty darn painful.  You can actually get a local anaesthetic put in first before they stitch you up if you want, but having had that once, I’d say it’s not really worth it because it takes about three injections to properly numb the area and that really stings in itself!  Best to just grit your teeth, get something to grab hold of and get on with it!  In the video, you’ll see my big fat fail in just breathing calmly through the stitching bit!  It really, really hurt because they had to pull it so tight to stop the CSF leak…it definitely hurt more than any other one I’ve ever had if that’s any consolation!  I think it’s because it had been in so long; the longer it’s in, the sorer it gets.  But after I’d had a good slug of Oramorph, it died down after about an hour.  And that’s it!

Yay!  It's gone!

Yay! It’s gone!

  Bolt is gone, you’ll have a nice stitch in your head and you won’t be tethered to a machine anymore!  Freedom!  You may be asked to lie flat for a couple of hours afterwards and then you can get up and go home.  Very occasionally your head may object to all the probing, tugging and stitching and stage a full-on protest afterwards.  Mine did this this time around but it’s never done it before and I know from the experiences of others that it is very rare.  I developed terrible pressure, headaches, distorted vision and nausea for about thirty-six hours afterwards.  But all that happened was that I was kept in, monitored closely (a CT scan was done but came up fine), given as many painkillers and anti-sickness as I needed and was only allowed home when I felt well again.  It was a real surprise that this happened because I did feel very awful indeed, but it was a first.  It very, very, very likely won’t happen to you; I am notoriously pressure-sensitive.  But I have always said I’ll be truthful in this blog so I wasn’t going to lie about what happened this time around.  Generally though, ICP monitoring is a little tedious (being tethered to machines is unusual) but is really, really helpful to your surgeon to determine exactly what your head and your shunt are doing so it really is worth having it done if it’s needed.  The discomfort passes and you will hopefully feel loads better afterwards.  Plus it makes for some very interesting photos to send to your friends/family/boss to impress them!

At the end of the day, although it’s not something I’d opt for voluntarily (given a choice between a days shopping and ICP monitoring, I know what I’d plump for), ICP monitors can really help get to the bottom of not-too-obvious shunt issues and this helps you get better more quickly.  And best of all, they’re pretty darn safe.  And when it comes to our brains and our health, that’s what we want!

Okay…total U-turn….

May 19, 2014

Erm….so you know how I said in my last post that Vietnam work was going to have to be shelved for a bit due to the key contacts I was working with disappearing?  Yes, well, forget all that.  I had a final push at trying to get the Vietnam door open and….ta-daaaaah!  Doors flinging open all over the place.  But most importantly, these doors were being opened by the right people. So in the past couple of weeks I’ve possibly made more progress than I had done in the last six months. 
  Looking back, it almost makes me laugh.  Because really, the key to achieving your goals is so simple.  You need passion about what you are doing.  You need to be doing it for the right reasons.  You need to be able to dream big.  And the people you decide to work with on the way need to be just as passionate, just as motivated for the right reasons and must be dreaming just as big.  As the new neurosurgeon I was put in touch with (Martin Corbally) who opened a whacking majorly big door said to me regarding my project,  ‘Jordan, doors are just waiting to open’.  And now they have, it feels great.  I won’t go into all of it because there’s shedloads of work ahead but I will say that it feels very positive, very exciting and very possible.  But I will mention Hillary Browne of Helping Orphans Worldwide…the biggest heart I’ve encountered in a long time and a big door-opener as well.  She does amazing work with her foundation (check out the link before) and is soon to be moving to Vietnam permanently so it’ll be fantastic to have so involved a contact actually out there, seeing as I can’t get on a plane due to my flipping noggin’.  So all good and now all moving forwards once again!  Stay tooned for news on this one.
  I also had a very productive and lovely meeting with a major hospital in a major city, who are being majorly helpful.  I very frustratingly can’t name them because they, like many who want to help in the donation of expired-but-absolutely-perfect medical equipment, are bound by internal rules which prohibit them donating; as a result, it’s all sent to landfill or for scrap metal.  MADDENING!  So they’re doing it very secretly.  I panic slightly about this on a weekly basis but their determination to join this cause overrides their fear of a possible firing and they’ve said they are more than happy to risk it.  Such determination of spirit is what fuels my belief that this will work.  Indeed, they’ve donated lots already to me (I sent out a goodie-bag of neurosurgical bits to Ethiopia last month from them) and now they’ve come up with major full kits for neurosurgery and shunt insertion which are literally like gold-dust.  They’ll be ready for me in July.  Very ‘cited about that!
  So many people have been offering donations for this recently…it’s so kind.  They range from money to fax machines to offers of help carrying all the heavier stuff to London so I can pass them onto the volunteers taking the equipment out to whatever country it is (that offer is probably the one that got the most effusive thanks!).  I’m in the process of setting up a charitable foundation with a website in production so that if folk do want to get involved in any way, it’ll make it a lot easier for them to do so.  So far I’ve not accepted money from anyone as I didn’t want anybody but myself to be out of pocket in any way.  But now the project is getting bigger and spreading its wings, I can see that if I carry on this way, I’ll end up bankrupt!  Posting heavy equipment across the world is not cheap, nor are the UK rail fares to go and pick it up (I’m not able to drive for two years following excessive burr-holes-in-da-head).  The hardest thing is choosing a name for the charity.  What the bejeezus am I going to call it?  It could be something safe and descriptive but I personally want it to be catchy, something which will get attention.  Not just another ‘Society For…’ or ‘Association For…’ because the charity world is saturated with those (no offence to Societies and Associations; it’s just that I don’t want us to get lost). So late-night brainstorming sessions looking for a name are the current order of my day.

  My, what a helpful post that was!  I have great news on the development of the project but I can’t tell you what it is, I’ve received some amazing donations but I can’t tell you who they’re from and I’m soon to be a charitable organisation but I can’t tell you what it will be called.  Aren’t you glad you read this? 

Before I go, here’s a picture of true happiness….apparently all that’s needed to achieve this state is a warm lap, some sunshine and someone tickling the top of your head.  Who knew?   

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This is da life.